WE WANT YOU!!!!

... just as you are ...

For years I've struggled with thinking that I am not intelligent and that I am too "ditzy" and too "scatterbrained" to really accomplish anything. I struggled in school, because staying focused on the task at hand was always difficult. As an adult I was accused of having "Adult ADD" because of the way I have difficulty staying focused. It wasn't until very recently that I've realized that my image of myself was inherently wrong and what I thought was a weakness was actually a strength. There is nothing wrong with the way I process things and when used correctly it can be my biggest ally. 

There is saying that men think like a waffle; compartmentalized and structured and women think like spaghetti; everything running together and connected.  Me? I think like popcorn. Constantly moving; jumping from thing to thing absolutely FULL of new ideas and mental energy. 

This way of processing is very frustrating when you are trying to study for a big test or writing a research paper but when you are planning events for children's church for the year or putting together a fun event; it is fantastic. I am able to seamlessly jump from item to item without feeling stressed or flustered; like popping popcorn. I am never lacking in fun and creative ideas. My imagination runs wild and I let it!

The point is that I spent 27 years inhibiting myself from success because of what I thought successful people looked/thought like. Only in the last  year have I realized that God INTENTIONALLY DESIGNED me to be this way for the purposes he has planned for me. As long as I follow Him instead of asking Him to follow me; He leads me right to my purpose and I thrive like a flower planted in the sunlight, or in this case, SONlight.

Don't be like me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please!!!!!!!!! Don't mistake your assents for weaknesses. God doesn't want you to be like the person sitting next to you or even like that leader that you really respect. He wants you to think like yourself, act like yourself, and use the tools HE GAVE YOU to follow him obediently and fill a need somewhere.