See you Soon?

For the entirety of my life (to my recollection) I have found it difficult to fully accept my inadequacies. If there is something about myself that I truly despise; I will do my best to change it. 

When I was in Junior High I was unbelievably shy. No... I don't a little shy, like I am now... I mean like have a panic attack in a restaurant when it was my turn to talk to the waitress, shy. 

I hated it when it was time to pair up with someone in class to do a project, because even if I knew someone was my friend, I was too afraid to ask them to be my partner, so I would either choose to work alone or wait for the teacher to pair me with whoever else in class didn't have a partner.

I decided in the 8th grade that I had had enough! I was NOT going to spend my life terrified to speak to people. The only conclusion I could come up with was to learn to swim by diving in the pool. Which, translated, means I signed up for theater. I forced myself out of my comfort zone (which was teensy tiny).

This has been a regular thing for me. I see a problem; I fix it. I try really hard not to whine or wallow... don't ask my husband... his opinion doesn't count. If you can't whine to your spouse, life is just not worth living. ;) 

Where am I going with this? 

Well recently I have noticed something about myself that I don't care for. 

I haven't been reaching out in friendship. 

It's so much easier to check in with people through facebook, comment on their pictures, and wish them a happy birthday (that you only remembered because facebook reminded you), than it is to really reach out to people.

NO... I'm not talking about artificial "face time".
I'm talking about really reaching out in friendship! Really enjoying eachother on a "one on one" level. 

SO, if you are my friend, don't be surprised if I call you and ask to "stop by", because I have a new goal of visiting a friend at least once a week. 

If I don't call... don't be offended... it doesn't mean I don't like you. 

This goal may seem ridiculously small to some, but I find it's so easy to get busy during the week and realize that I haven't even tried to be there for someone. 

Hopefully in these endeavors, I will see you soon.... and if I do, leave your yoga pants on, your make up in the drawer, your kids in their jammies, and those dishes in the sink... .I don't want to "audit" you, I want to see you! :)